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4.16.06 @ 6:12 pm] |
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Any ways...Let's see. Hey James! How's it goin? Lol...Yoshii n I are finally with each other with out any interruptions...He doesn't have to work for like a week and half or something. N we're heading back to our real home...Cincinnati, Ohio on Monday. At least this is what we plan. Things have been coming up though. Like the fucking wheels on his car are cursed or something. This is like the 4th or 5th time in 2weeks that the car has broke down on us cuz'a the wheels...He has been trying to get his old tires back from this one guy...But the guy likes to play mind-fuck-games and doesn't show the fuck up when he says he's going to! Aggravates me...Well, I know it makes Yoshii even more mad...But yeah. It makes me sad when he's mad. Today we were driving to the place to get the tires. N we heard something pop and then it sounded like something was loose. Well the whole lug nut thingie or whatever it was blew off. I was scared. Like I've never seen Yoshii mad. He was banging his head into the steering wheel and punching things. N kicking and beating up the car n whatnot...It was scary. So I just stayed outta the way. I didn't wanna agitate him more or anything...Hmmm...I felt really bad. N I really hope that nothing that he was upset about was MY fault. I was scared that I might've done something wrong. I don't ever want to be a reason for his un-happiness...Meh...
Well...We're just working on trying to get back to Cincinnati, Ohio...Then we can work on figuring out who we need to pay visits to...N I think that if we do end up throwing down a party, then that problem can be solved easily...Just have everyone get together...
Other than that. I've been good...
Haha! I just started playing Ragnarok. I get to be a girl, with blue hair! N kill lil blobs! N this stupid guy with demon wanna be wings was following me around tryin ta be all up on me. He started talking to me...N look: ( Read more... )
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| sona dun ya kiea yea |
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4.15.06 @ 7:17 pm] |
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A bird flew into Yoshii's windshield when we were driving! Haha, feathers got on him! Stupid seagulls!
N then...
We both pee'd in the toilet at the same time! That was awesome...
Now. We're going to go get me a bikini, (well try...) So we can go to the beach and play around.
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| "That scared the poop outta me!" |
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4.15.06 @ 1:02 am] |
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It's so romantic outside right now...The rolling thunder, the beautiful lightening, and the rain pouring down! I wish Yoshii n I could be out in it together...But he's asleep...N I'm using him as a table to put the laptop on. **giggles** But, I can't be mad at him. He deserves sleep! N he NEEDS it! I hope he feels better soon...I want to share an opportunity like this with him sometime! ^_^
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| LyKe Whoa! LOL!!! |
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4.13.06 @ 7:34 pm] |
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This shit is bananas! ( Lol... )
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| : my shit is wack! : |
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4.13.06 @ 12:18 am] |
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Ugh...I don't feel good. I wish I could go to bed, but I slept almost all day...So that isn't about to happen. I woke up at 2pm. Went back to bed around 6pm. Dunno what time I woke up. Now it's almost midnight...N I'm siting up on myspace listening to Tiesto...BLAH! I just now signed onto AIM, cuz I'm getting bored outta my mind. I haven't felt like talking to anyone all day...Well, sept Greg I guess. I talked to him for a lil bit.
I got bored...N "fuct" up the laptop. Lol. Wonder if Yosh will kill me:
I think it's cute...LOL! ^_^
Hmmm...I wonder why I'm so down? I have no idea...But it's getting worse. I just want Yoshii to be here already, so he can make me feel better...I've almost had two panic attacks already...
I'm really, really, really worried about Yoshii's taxes. He seems like one'a the type of people that will just forget about something until the time is like right around the corner. Then he just doesn't know what to do, so he does nothing...While I'm over here freaking out about it. Meh...Well, I guess I'm going to do them for him...But. Yeah, he's on duty and not picking up the phone...I need his social security number. BLAH! N it's too late to call his Ma.
Hmmm...I dunno. My tummy hurts. I feel like poop...My period is being gay...If it's even my period. Makes no sense. Like the 1st and 2nd day of it, it's usually really heavy...N it's the 1st day, n it's like nothing at all. N I'm not even suppose to be having my period right now. It's like a week or more early. Oh well. Maybe I'm dying. HAHA!!
Ugh...I just seen a picture of someone I love. . .Wow. They look soooo different from when I knew them. It kinda creaps me out...I dunno...**crying** Weird...
Other than that. I'm going to just go to sleep, or continue to go into panic attacks till I fall into a coma induced stroke...Or something like that.
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4.12.06 @ 7:07 pm] |
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Somedays, you wake up...N just wish that you had died in your sleep the night before...
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| [all the castles way up high] |
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4.11.06 @ 2:36 pm] |
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I love Egg McMuffins! I want like 10of them! But...Like, they are gay and cost fuckin $2 EACH! Why can't they be a DOLLA!! Rotf...Meh. N eating them the next morning, isn't very good at all...I just tried that. Mep. I need to just go out n buy some friggin eggs and some muffins...N MAKE MY OWN! PWNED!! Hhahaha...
Any ways. . .I'm tired. I've actually been sleeping these past 2weeks or so. I haven't had a regular sleeping pattern in about 6months or so. It sucked...But I guess I can relax or something when I'm with Yoshii all the time, so I can actually get some sleep. But last night we had to do his uniforms n whatnot...Not having a thimble to hand sew with, hurts...My fingers hurt pretty bad. Oh well. I would've done them all for him, if he needed me to. He left them on his ship though. . .Heh...He called me this morning, n told me that he passed that part of his inspection. :o) I'm glad...I hope he passes everything, so we can go to Cincinnati together. They told him that if he didn't pass the inspection, then he wouldn't be able to go on leave. But somehow, I kinda don't believe that. I don't think they'd really not let you leave. But then again, I dunno.
I have been trying to fix his "our" laptop n whatnot...Like. I put anti-virus NOD32 on there. Scanned, there's no viruses or anything...That's good...I deleted his Firefox...Which he didn't appreciate. Lol. I hate that thing. But he likes it, so I put it back this morning. Hm...I dunno. I'm bored. In a few mins I need to start his dinner, so he can have something to eat when he gets here...He was so surprised when I made him dinner last night. That was the first time, I actually cooked something on the store for someone like that or whatever. I usually just heated him up tv dinners, n put them on a plate so they look like I made them. ;o) ROTF!
Oh yeah...Meh. Lately, I feel worthless and depressed...
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| take it to da house |
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4.10.06 @ 9:16 am] |
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L- You have a nice ass ;-)
I- Have a big warm heart.
Z- You like it in the ass VERY VERY HARD
A- Damn good in bed.
B- You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people.
C- Love is something you deeply believe in.
D- You have trouble trusting people
E- You have a nice ass ;-)
F- People totally adore you
G- Love is something you deeply believe in.
H- You have very good personality and looks.
I- Have a big warm heart.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things
L- You have a nice ass ;-)
M- You never let ppl tell you what to do
N- You are one of the best in bed.
O- You love foreplay.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- You are very hot and sexy!
S- People think you are so sexy.
T -You are one of the best in bed.
YoU- u are really layed back.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- Success comes easily to you
Y- One of the hardest gangsters alive
Z- You like it in the ass VERY VERY HARD
That's not really a real update, ROTF!
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| ---opened my eyes let me see--- |
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4.7.06 @ 10:07 pm] |
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This might sound...Really gay...But I really miss my church...Like, bad. I'm sitting here...Thinking about all my family there. N I'm bout to cry. . .I want to be there. I want to be there this Sunday, and Wednesday...I just want to be there...I miss them all...I miss it all...Meh. I don't know if I'm going to be able to move to Florida...Let alone Virginia, n leave all my family behind in the church...
light of the world you step down into darkness
opened my eyes let me see
beauty that makes this heart adore You
hope of a life spent with You
so here I am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that your my God
your altogether lovely
altogether worthy
altogether wonderful to me
king of all days
oh so highly exalted
glorious in Heaven above
humbly You came to the earth you created
all for loves sake became poor
i'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross
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| -i need you more than anything in my life- |
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I made this for Yoshii for when he got back from his 6week deploy...Which was like a week ago. But I showed it to him, and then forgot to post it public...So here you go...You should read it. It's awesome!
( Yoshii's Story... )
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| you're so blind to me |
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4.7.06 @ 5:02 pm] |
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I'm bored and drunk. So I'm looking at neat things...( I want... )
N then for some reason...My mind drifted off to henti...ACK! ShHhHhH!
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| bringing you up, n taking you down |
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"You, try to take the best of me...GO AWAY!" Meh...I just want to spend all day with Yoshii. N not have to wake up to an alarm in my ear saying he has to leave me for another 24hours...I'm patient, n I wait n I do what I have to...I KNOW he has to do what he has to, n I make sure he gets it done...But...I still have the desire to want to be with him more...
Meh...So I found out we're leaving here a week from today. Sometime on the 14th or 15th. Cuz that's the weekend right before the 17th. Which is the actual day his leave period starts. . .I can't wait. No one will tell him he has to leave my side for that time he's on leave. If they do. They're going to have to use a cro-bar to get us apart! Meh...
I dunno...I want Chinese food for some reason...I'm getting sick of eatting all this meat. I don't even like meat. Blah...Wooo, McD's is waiting for me in the fridge. I can't wait. Lol...I want breakfast from McD's but Yosh calls me n tells me they stopped serving it. It was like fuckin 10:40am. I thought they didn't stop till like 11am...Whatever...
I feel like poop...I'm pretty down...Slightly actually depressed...I have alot on my mind...Dunno...I may go back to sleep...Or something. Take a shower later, cuz my hair is sticking up and fuct up in all directions...Also, cuz I don't have my hair brush with me...I gotta do laundry too...
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